Well, there is a LOT on my mind this week. Our Goober turned 4 on Monday which meant 2 parties to plan. We have a 2nd birthday party to go to tonight that I am still making the gifts for and then I have to pack for the hospital. The hospital. Okay, if you've been following along, the Bug is having surgery on her Nevus TOMORROW!!! YIKES! Yes, this is planned surgery but it's still scary. I've been thinking for 3 days what I wanted to say here and so many things came to me. Is my faith strong enough? Can I truly believe without any doubt that God loves us and will protect our baby? Yes. And no. Not that I don't believe it, but unfortunately, I'm still human and humans worry. Humans have a hard time trusting totally something they can't see or touch. I love God. I know He is there. But I have to trust the surgeon. Because we are Christians, does that mean that none of the possible complications will arise? Nope. God sometimes allows things to go wrong. We won't always know why, but he does. I just have to trust that HE 'has our backs' as it were. He gave this amazing young lady to us that just happens to have a REALLY big birthmark that just happens to have some issues in it. But we can handle it. Right? I have asked for prayers at the Bugs school (it's a christian private school), I have asked for prayers at church. I have to trust that enough people will pray and that God will listen and that all will be well. And that if all is not well, more people will pray and God will grant us the peace and strength to deal with that too. Oy. If anything goes wrong I'm not sure I could live with myself for convincing my little Bug that she should do this in the first place.
Now for the surgery details. Her surgery is taking place in a Children's Hospital. With nurses who treat her like she knows what is going on but try to make things as non-scary as possible. I don't know what time yet. I call later today to find that out. When we know the time of surgery all the rest of this stuff will make more sense. She will have to stop eating at midnight tonight. We figure on letting her stay up late so she can have a late snack. She can then have clear fluids up until 4 hours before surgery. Which might mean apple juice for breakfast =) We have to be at the hospital 2 hours before the surgery time. She needs a bath ahead of time and I'm supposed to take her through a video tour on the website but have not had time to sit still the last few weeks! The OR is booked for 2.5 hours for her.... so they are expecting to take a while. They have said it is planned for her to be in hospital 24hours after surgery and a parent can stay overnight with her. Umm, right, and if it weren't allowed I would anyway!
Okay, I think I'm starting to make less sense. Feel free to ask questions.... =)
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